Waking Dreams

It's been a long road coming and the way forward might be longer still. But I have been letting in and letting out. Opening and growing up. I have been expanding lately to accommodate some dreams of mine - the ones who have laid dormant for quite a while. Sometimes dreams don't die, they only sleep.

The time is coming to wake them. 

Every day I feel that I am waking up, a little more. If you haven't done so already, please check out my new website and blog.

I am excited about this next phase, I hope you will join me.

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Taking Less Photos

It's not that Im not writing. Im just sensing a transition.

I started this blog 2 years ago. Wow, how time flies when you are turning your life upside down! And part of the purpose was to share the experiences, the changes and challenges, my highs and lows with a larger audience. It created openness, sharing and accountability. And it let me take so many I love who are so far away on an international adventure!

The other day I had a funny thought about my camera. I realized that often I have to step outside of my moment to photograph things. I have to separate myself from being truly present when I want to capture something. You know that feeling at a party. Its when you notice everyone is having a great time, or someone is about to do something funny and so you take out your camera to "remember" the moment. I have great pictures as a result of this tendency. But if you are standing outside catching the moment, you are not inside experiencing the moment. Part of me has been doing it for you, to show you my world. To give you a view inside my reality and my days. To explain to where I come from about where I am now. Its been my honor and my privilege. But now, its not where I want to be.

So Im taking less pictures. Im writing less blogs. And Im living a little more. Im working on writing copy for websites, Im working on writing a book. But most of all I am LOVING my life. The ups and downs of me remain. And my lessons aren't slowing only growing. My friend Gabriella used to say, "Life is a school." And even though my subjects are getting more advanced it seems, I feel more relaxed about showing up to class.

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Berlin-aversary

Its my Anniversary. Me and Berlin met 2 years ago. And I remember in the few days before my flight having this scary, full feeling.  A huge anxiety was collecting and looming in my belly. I had already bought my ticket. The trip was planned and everything was ready to go, but I remember thinking about canceling. Really considering it. I had this feeling that if I went, everything was going to change.

And it did.

What is it about a new place-new experience that allows you to ask questions? Somehow, no matter how old you are, if you are somewhere new, you are entitled to discovery. That is probably my favorite part of Berlin so far, the freedom I have experienced even and especially in my own mind.

So if you are thinking about going somewhere, doing something different and you are afraid....I cant possibly recommend it enough. Sometimes fear is an excellent indicator of what's vital. Sometimes its a kind of "True North" to point in the direction you should go. It separates the fact the and fiction and boils it down to pure instinct. Because when you do it, when you come face to face with that thing you feared most, you discover who you really are.

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